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Graduation thesis+depression=not a great combo=help needed!

hey everyone,
I reckon the best advise is still just to write my own essays but i truly need some help this time. I have never used any writing services nor considered/imagined i'd be using one 1 day but here i am stressing over the most important essay in my 4 years educational career.
i was suppose to start writing my thesis about 3 month ago, but due to many unexpected turns in life (and i am not using them as excuses or at least i don't intend to), i lost my motivation, hope, faith, confidence, pretty much myself, i've sank into a slump and i can't seem to get myself out of it. lately i slowly come to realize that i don't want this to delay my graduation. i have worked really hard and well in the past years and i was so close, i don't want it to be ruined just because i let emotions get the best of me. so, I started to work on the my thesis but it's just going nowhere. so i have turned to writing services.
I have ordered a 5 page thesis proposal from custompapers.com the other day, hope that somebody would put things into perspective for me, so that i can carry on from there, change it and adapted it before handing in. still waiting on the paper, then i got greedy and start thinking if my proposal was approved, then I'd get them to write my 30 to 40 page thesis (which i will use as a draft again to carry on with), which sound really ridiculous, but i am that much in trouble...
I am on a very short time line, i have only till march...i need to hand in my report in between to have it checked...do you guys have any recommendations or any advice on how should i proceed with this? anything is something!
thank you guys in advance!